Neil, in his podcast on negativity says that the desire to have nothing bothering you, that is, the desire to simply be "useless", is an expression of the death drive Freudbelieved that this desire is repressed and comes out in various self-destructive habits, such as drinking, doing drugs, etc. For Freud, life introduces anxiety and struggle.

And on this, the Buddhaand Freudagree: life is struggle.

Conversely, we also have a desire to work towards what the best version of ourselves is (by removing lack, and that struggle creates jouissance