Largely inspired by . > The best way to measure how much you've grown isn't by inches or the > number of laps you can now run around the track, or even your grade > point average - though those things are important, to be sure. It's > what you've done with your time, how you've chosen to spend your days, > and whom you've touched this year. That, to me, is the greatest > measure of success. > > — Unknown > A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and gets to bed at > night, and in between he does what he wants to do. > > — Bob Dylan something something olin shivers reject things machines can do > What's the greater risk - letting go of what people think or letting > go of how I feel, what I believe and who I am? > > — Brene Brown, [src](https://blog.matsu.io/on-leaving) > I would like this to signal the end of "wasted angst" in my life: I’ve > never regretted anything so much as having particular individual > worries, in a certain sense anachronistic ones, whereas general > worries, worries about our time (or at any rate those that can be > reduced to such: like your problem in paying the rent, for instance) > are so many and so vast and so much "my own" that I feel they are > enough to fill all my "worryability" and even my interest and > enjoyment in living. So from now on I want to dedicate myself entirely > to these latter (worries) — but I am already aware of the traps in > this question and that's why for some time now my first need has been > to "de-journalistize" myself, to get myself out of the stranglehold > that has dominated these last few years of my life, reading books to > review immediately, commenting on something even before having to time > to form an opinion on it. I want to build a new kind of daily program > for myself where I can finally get into something, something > definitive (within the limits of historical possibility), something > not dishonest or insincere (unlike the way today’s journalist always > behaves, more or less). For that reason I make several plans for > myself: … to maintain my contacts with reality and the world, but > being careful, of course, not to get lost in unnecessary activities; > and also to set up my own individual work not as a "journalist" any > more but as a "scholar," with systematic readings, notes, comments, > notebooks, a load of things I've never done; and also, eventually, to > write a novel. > > — Calvino > "At midnight, alone on the shore. One moment more and then I shall set > sail. The sky itself has weighed anchor, with all its stars, like > those ships which at this very hour gleam throughout the world with > all their lights and illuminate dark harbour waters. Space and silence > weigh equally upon the heart. A sudden love, a great work, a decisive > act, a thought which transfigures, all these at certain moments bring > the same unbearable anxiety, linked with an irresistible charm. Is > living like this in the delicious anguish of being, in exquisite > proximity to a danger whose name we do not know the same as rushing to > our doom? Once again, without respite, let us go. > > I have always felt that I was living on the high seas, threatened, at > the heart of a royal happiness." > > — Camus, standing before the sea of Algiers. > "Debugging is twice as hard as writing the code in the first place. > Therefore, if you write the code as cleverly as possible, you are, by > definition, not smart enough to debug it." — Brian W. Kernighan and P. > J. Plauger > “It is an act of cowardice to seek from (or to wish to give) the > people we love any other consolation than that which works of art give > us. These help us through the mere fact that they exist. To love and > to be loved only serves mutually to render this existence more > concrete, more constantly present to the mind." — [Gravity and > Grace](https://www.amazon.com/Gravity-Grace-Routledge-Classics-41/dp/0415290015) > I no longer love blue skies. In fact, I now prefer grey skies. The > drones do not fly when the skies are grey.