# nana the feeling of attachment that comes with enveloping yourself in a literary world - a video game, novel, manga- etc. - is incredibly impactful. latest fascination has been nana - a bit of a shoujo manga and a story about 2000's punk in japan, with lots of broken families, relationship drama and vivienne westwood. there are four vivienne boxes sitting next to me at the moment, and i've begun to invest in piercings again. it's hard to find the rebellious, entreprenurial yearning depicted throughout nana (the earlier bits… the manga trails off into trivialities and unimportant stagnancy until the creator dropped off and stopped writing the series, probably for good reason) in boston or elsewhere - i felt it in sodermalm (now i wish i had a swedish keyboard!) and in san francisco, to a degree, but in a different way and with a different feeling. maybe it's the weather, but people in boston feel harsh - hardened, almost, against old money, hundred year old t tracks, and brutal winter weather like the sixteen to twenty four inches of snow we've seen today, or that i should have seen if i'd gone outside. portland is optimistic, but a bit small and lazy - things move slowly or stagnate there, maybe for good reason, because there is so much else to enjoy in life there for there to be a lot of room for ambition. san francisco feels like a strange, tech war zone, but there is an air of hopeless optimism that breaches the fog in the bay when the sun comes out. maybe i'll move soon; i want more inspiration, more motivation, better surroundings than boston, because, as wonderful as they are, i know these people aren't right for me now. # google is not enough [Google is not enough](https://dubroy.com/blog/google-is-not-enough/) a couple of studies - one a user study of how search is used from from karger's mit lab, another an analysis of the folder hierarchy of users - suggest that people enjoy imposing structure on their systems from the top down, and that some sort of folder structure - limitations aside - is critical to how users of computers use their software. # nine bar morning i went to nine bar, wednesday i think? there was a wonderful couple meeting their friend - both parties about my parents age, but they were happy! they were enjoying talking to one another about this house that they'd purchased that was wonderful despite not having had any renovations in seventy years! i don't think i've ever seen as kind of a public hug. these people are typically portland, but were completely out of place in somerville - i was pleasantly surprised by their morning pleasantries. twenty minutes before, listened to a conversation between two people in their thirties - one, a seemingly working class italian guy with short, spiked up and greased hair, had a lot to say about his new suit, his resume formatting (just a microsoft word template??), and a lot to say about amber, a girl he'd apparently seduced by composing an acrostic poem on paper then DMing her a photo. # do everything on hard mode esp early in life fail fast improve fast. push yourself into the deep end then recover. only wa yto progress and make sure you hold on is to work with longer time scales - especially longer than college - and try to make those goals only wa yto progress and make sure you hold on is to work with longer time scales - especially longer than college - and try to make those goals happen. five year time scales are good, so are ten. thinkin terms of the future and take all the steps you can to make that happen now. prove it to yourself! i haven't been thinking on long enough time scales and that's a big mistake. # the hand of god [Movies](id:c1fdd31a-1ba0-4631-8bb3-38e6eab4a807) wonderful film i watched with my parents over the winter - they nailed this 1980s grimy italian aesthetic, and it's so easy to live through the scenes fabietto witnesses daily and to observe his path from enjoying all of these small things to choosing to become a filmmaker himself. absolutely worth revisiting. # nocturnal animals [Movies](id:c1fdd31a-1ba0-4631-8bb3-38e6eab4a807) strange and difficult to follow - don't know if i could recommend this to anyone. tom ford as a director has a strange, "abstract" take on the movie that lives in this uncanny valley between lengthy metaphor and realistic film, and it's hard to tell what he meant by either - literally or not. well filmed with well composed shots, but ultimately confusing and falls flat on delivering the thinly veiled message ford wanted to convey. # math $\frac{123456789}{987654321}$ # having a successful intro meeting [Advice](id:71048a30-3080-43a5-9135-2cf8365aa790) [Employment](id:5b920ce1-774c-426c-a299-54b1dc62cc36) at work, i've had lots of intro 1:1s to get to know others in the company. here's the structure i found the most valuable: 1. Who are you? What's your story? Get a bit of information about the other person. \~3 minutes. 2. Let's back up. This is your time to ask any questions you'd like of me about anything. Go for it. Role at company? What do you want to do? How can you succeed here professionally? Etc… 3. What are your priorities over the course of your time here? 4. Wrap up and get impressions/feedback: what do you think of the company? How can I do better? # other thoughts on making good contributions; after seeing nushell technology is aout leapfrogging - you have to jump from one thing to the next, makingsmall, incremental improvements, with lots of hard work behind each, to get where uou want to go. this necessarily requires a lot of deliberate, organized ,motivated effort, and some people who either have a fetish for a specific topic or are very, very willing to do boring and dirty work - the "unsexy" work of promotion, quality control, and efficiency that makes things run more smoothly and seamlessly supports integration with so many other products. always have a customer but pick your customer are these the type of people you want to help? what do you want to help them with? leverage as much existing infrastructure as you can identify the customer precisely and realize what theoretical things they need; pick the customer that lts you learn the most about what you'd like to do # glute dominance for athletic performance most people are glute inhibited! make sure to exercise them - and put lots of time in. this might be legitimate advice; i'll develop a consistent workout structure first, then flesh out the details of what is being worked out. the first battle to fight is getting to the gym consistently.