## 09:18 coping

from some or all of ava's articles lately constantly feeling 'need to
intellectualize' can often rather be an effort to 'explain it all
away' - sometimes it's more of a coping mechanism than anything else.
(jungian shadow theory: everyone's perception of themselves that forms
their identity inevitably gives rise their opposites would form within
themselves; characteristics they must surpress). emotions tell you
something important in that they **will** impact how you interact with
the consequences of your actions and decisions, <u>regardless</u> of how
you choose to rationalize them. Understanding your feelings rather than
rationalizing them in the context of others (i.e: this is what i want
and they behave that way because they have different values, as opposed
to 'they reacted poorly to something i said or did, what did i do
wrong'). feelings get a lot of things right, and are early flags for
things you want, don't want, should be or should not be. listen to
yourself more!

## 09:47 agency resources

<https://simonsarris.substack.com/p/the-most-precious-resource-is-agency>
early lives in biographies feel the most important! but diminished
agency in childhood seems to deprive too many of us from the
experiences, the advent, the innovations that we could have on our own.
it's unclear whether the structure of clubs, robotics competitions, or
other ruch tools is healthy or sustainable! 'doing': being told what to
do. sacrificing twenty years of life to this feels like far too much!

## 10:03 mimetic trap advice

<https://www.briantimar.com/notes/mimetic/mimetic/>

- to emulate, start by reading what they read - authors comprise much of
  the meta peer group that determines the communities you engage with
- don't force yourself to do anything you hate! if you're too good you
  won't have a good escape route
- enjoy the process not tne outcome
- make sure you have clear price signals for success and failure for
  whatever you do
- hold to ambitious standards and write them down - your time is
  valuable!

## 17:44 coworking best

<https://guzey.com/co-working/>

- gather.town office
- 2-16 hour prescheduled sessions! very productive, supposedly
- helpful to work on difficult projects:
  - long, noisy and/or painful feedback loops
  - no well defined scope
  - no well defined deadline
  - anxiety inducing
- solutions:
- check-ins every 30 minutes
- peer pressure to succeed and to socialize!

## 17:53 allergy immunotherapy!

strong consensus that AIT (allergy immunotherapy) works, but unclear
*how* exactly it works and in what circumstances most prick studies
found to be at serious risk of bias given inadequete controls

… continued at a later date, bet this could be interesting! always
struggle with what to do *now* as opposed to what i can/should ship off
to a later time and date. tonight i'm just going to read up on fourtran
and catch up wrt email besides the articles i'm waiting to read.

## 21:06 quicker way of messaging from a to b

currently, my flow is:

- see thing on web (a) that is relevant to person/chat (b)
- copy reference and information for (a)
- open client containing (b) (often multi step process, depends on
  client. moving to phone is even worse)
- locate specific repository within client (b)
- paste info with content specific formatting to client, sending to or
  recording for others

i want the flow to be:

- see thing on web relative to person
- highlight thing (maybe copy even)
- hit keyboard shortcut to open native search box
- rearch **all** chats for the desired, then just press enter to shoot
  the ciontent off to the designated chat

## box data structure with overrides!

programming language where all values are boxes but also primitives, and
each function call knows to pull the designated primitive out of the box

some more examples:

x = \[ 1, 2, 3 \] x + 3 =\> 4 x.next() x + 3 =\> 5 (uses the next value
coming in!) x.pop() x + 3 =\> 6 (internal looks like \[3, 1\]?)

basically, i want an ergonomic way to iterate through a group of values
while treating the top value like a single, immutable value without
having to extract and assign it to a separate variable. the
encapsulation here also allows more interesting 'iteration' options,
though at the core it is a more ergonomic iterator process. I can't
recall the original use case, but I'm certain that some problems can be
expressed better natively with thic configuration - even if it is just
minor syntactic sugar.

Jul 4, 2021 1:25:08 PM Jake Chvatal \<jake@isnt.online\>:

internally : \[1, 2, 3\] returns 1 can can '.swap' to swap inner value
with another one it contains