## 09:18 coping from some or all of ava's articles lately constantly feeling 'need to intellectualize' can often rather be an effort to 'explain it all away' - sometimes it's more of a coping mechanism than anything else. (jungian shadow theory: everyone's perception of themselves that forms their identity inevitably gives rise their opposites would form within themselves; characteristics they must surpress). emotions tell you something important in that they **will** impact how you interact with the consequences of your actions and decisions, regardless of how you choose to rationalize them. Understanding your feelings rather than rationalizing them in the context of others (i.e: this is what i want and they behave that way because they have different values, as opposed to 'they reacted poorly to something i said or did, what did i do wrong'). feelings get a lot of things right, and are early flags for things you want, don't want, should be or should not be. listen to yourself more! ## 09:47 agency resources early lives in biographies feel the most important! but diminished agency in childhood seems to deprive too many of us from the experiences, the advent, the innovations that we could have on our own. it's unclear whether the structure of clubs, robotics competitions, or other ruch tools is healthy or sustainable! 'doing': being told what to do. sacrificing twenty years of life to this feels like far too much! ## 10:03 mimetic trap advice - to emulate, start by reading what they read - authors comprise much of the meta peer group that determines the communities you engage with - don't force yourself to do anything you hate! if you're too good you won't have a good escape route - enjoy the process not tne outcome - make sure you have clear price signals for success and failure for whatever you do - hold to ambitious standards and write them down - your time is valuable! ## 17:44 coworking best - gather.town office - 2-16 hour prescheduled sessions! very productive, supposedly - helpful to work on difficult projects: - long, noisy and/or painful feedback loops - no well defined scope - no well defined deadline - anxiety inducing - solutions: - check-ins every 30 minutes - peer pressure to succeed and to socialize! ## 17:53 allergy immunotherapy! strong consensus that AIT (allergy immunotherapy) works, but unclear *how* exactly it works and in what circumstances most prick studies found to be at serious risk of bias given inadequete controls … continued at a later date, bet this could be interesting! always struggle with what to do *now* as opposed to what i can/should ship off to a later time and date. tonight i'm just going to read up on fourtran and catch up wrt email besides the articles i'm waiting to read. ## 21:06 quicker way of messaging from a to b currently, my flow is: - see thing on web (a) that is relevant to person/chat (b) - copy reference and information for (a) - open client containing (b) (often multi step process, depends on client. moving to phone is even worse) - locate specific repository within client (b) - paste info with content specific formatting to client, sending to or recording for others i want the flow to be: - see thing on web relative to person - highlight thing (maybe copy even) - hit keyboard shortcut to open native search box - rearch **all** chats for the desired, then just press enter to shoot the ciontent off to the designated chat ## box data structure with overrides! programming language where all values are boxes but also primitives, and each function call knows to pull the designated primitive out of the box some more examples: x = \[ 1, 2, 3 \] x + 3 =\> 4 x.next() x + 3 =\> 5 (uses the next value coming in!) x.pop() x + 3 =\> 6 (internal looks like \[3, 1\]?) basically, i want an ergonomic way to iterate through a group of values while treating the top value like a single, immutable value without having to extract and assign it to a separate variable. the encapsulation here also allows more interesting 'iteration' options, though at the core it is a more ergonomic iterator process. I can't recall the original use case, but I'm certain that some problems can be expressed better natively with thic configuration - even if it is just minor syntactic sugar. Jul 4, 2021 1:25:08 PM Jake Chvatal \: internally : \[1, 2, 3\] returns 1 can can '.swap' to swap inner value with another one it contains