## 20:22 lots of articles
one article sent me into a bit of a reading frenzy over the past few
days. this is an attempt to collect all of my thoughts
### evangelion
visuals of the rebuild series are spectacular, and highlight a lot of
potential that was missed from the first go-around. the constant action
emphasizes key character dynamics more, though i still appreciate the
quiet, drawn out contemplation of the original TV show to the
CG-assisted spectacle. The storyline is a bit less opaque, which hurt
some of the appeal (the obcurity of it all - flashes of informatiion
interspersed with long periods of quiet, emotional moments) but
definitely improve understanding on the screen.
### loving new music!
making music is not yet something i should pursue - there are better
roles for me to play and lots of projects to finish. imagine if i
finished something!
### central park
### shopping
i still have no understanding of what drives such behavior and this
entitlement! theories about class warfare carry some weight, but feel
too systemic to completely explain behavior. i'm unwilling to allow
critical theory to solely explain behaviors that are at their core
individual, though i will admit that i have fought against pressure from
others to not be this way.
### tracking conversations
is texting out of the blue still too impersonal? maybe i should find
some way to earmark converation for specific times and dates. i have to
build my system!
### the new american university
love this work! hadn't thought about ASU - or colleges - in this light.
Admire the thought out marketing, even though the justification for the
college architecture may be only that; the article is largely
dismissive of the ability of elite universities to promote and conduct
networking between students, as it is far more likely for these
connections to benefit others than the average available course.
physical proximity to others is far more powerful than any subsequent
ability to network when entrenched in life.
### critical networks
how things
spread!
### visualizations; explaining code via ascii art
### high return activity: raising the aspirations of others
"why don't you just do it all?"
this specific case is regardint the intentional promotion of masters
students to PhD students - as often the former aspire to be the latter,
but don't have the adequete inspiration, based on what the article
implies about their school and field?
inspiring others and 'upping' their expectations of themselves is
therefore one of the best things you can do with your time and your
life! giving others the resources, knowedge, recommendations,
inspiration to realize part of themselves is a wonderful thing.
the more i reflect on how i have changed, and how much, the more i
realize that my inspirations ahve not been from a small, conscious set
of people i have curated - they have been from everyone in my life,
especially those i choose to let in, and this is what makes self
awarenesss so so so so so important. know what influences you so that
you can control this, but never limit it!
### self metta
to love someone you pay attention to their needs. four different loving
emotions of the brahmaviharas; each comes from directing attention to
experiences and beings, anything that can experience pain, pleasure,
want or fear.
1. pain/compassion
how we understand how to feel bad, and as such the root of
compassion; this is why we know we don't want others to feel bad! we
have experienced pleasure, so we understand the pleasure of others;
must come from ourselves first. experience compassion when we see
someone else hurt and we help; the attention produces the feeling.
producing self-compassion is to place attention on a way the self
hurts; not to pity these emotions, but to understand your own
suffering and empathize with it as though it were the suffering of
another. Examine specific pains or pain in broad strokes and
empathize with it.
2. pleasure
we feel sympathetic joy when we appreciate others feeling pleasure,
a we know how it is to enjoy pleasure ourselves.
3. metta
'lovekindness', or the ability to
it is okay to quit anything whenever you want, so i am quitting this